Some people don't like me.
I try to be friendly and cheerful all the time. The consequence has been that throughout my life, most of the people that I have enjoyed being around have also liked me. This has given me a somewhat delusional sense that all people like me.
But I have had plenty of opportunities, especially since entering my 30's, to realize that some people don't like me.
I have mostly realized this because they have told me so. Point blank. To my face. Specifically informed me of the reasons why they don't like me.
Interestingly, the reasons some people tend not to like me have turned out to be some of the very same reasons why I like myself.
And that has been hard to handle.
I won't go into specifics, partly because three of the people who have had the courage to explain face to face why they don't like me are still friends of mine on Facebook and two others (who only explained why they sometimes don't like me) are related to me. Also, I won't go into specifics because that isn't the point of this post.
Not only have I realized that some people don't like me, I have realized that some people won't like me.
I met a new person who doesn't like me this last week. He also had the courage to tell me to my face exactly what he didn't like. However, unlike the others who expressed themselves privately and whom I respect and continue to consider friends (despite their not always liking me), this person told me in front of my Dickens bosses, my cast, my sons, and his camera crew. And as shockingly uncomfortable as the ensuing minutes were, I also got to realize something else.
Some people do like me.
Some people like me for ALL the exact reasons why a few people don't like me.
A recent Facebook quiz got it dead on:
Big Buddha, I am really sorry I cut you off. I didn't mean to be rude; I was just looking for the efficient solution to the quandary in which we found ourselves. Yes, I guess I do often respond quickly. Yes, I speak very directly. Yes, your pointing this out in front of everyone bothered me a whole lot more than I let on.
Some people don't like me. It saddens me to see this list grow. I'll do what I can to take your destructive criticism and make positive changes to how I interact, especially with strangers.
But I like me. So I won't change much.