Where the inside of my mind leaks onto the screen.

Sunday, June 2, 2019


For those who haven't heard yet, Kirk accepted a job in Georgia - a promotion that is a great opportunity for him. 

I was anticipating a discussion about what was best for the kids and what changes would be made to our custody agreement to accommodate such a big move; instead I found out that he plans for the kids to move there with him in time to start school in the fall, and in order to have a discussion about the move, schools, healthcare, or any major decisions that affect them, I would need to involve the courts.

To say life is hard right now would be a huge understatement. I don't yet know what is going to happen with the kids, though I hope to have some answers by the end of June. The constant emotional drain is affecting me mentally and physically, and it takes incredible amounts of energy to make it through each day.

I'm not handling small talk very well right now, because my mind is constantly focused on this REALLY big thing. I'm not saying "yes" to a whole lot right now, because my traditionally limitless stores of energy are simply gone. I'm struggling with focus even more than usual because my very limited working memory is stretched beyond capacity trying to do everything right with the attorney/court. And honestly... I'm just sad most of the time.

Many people have asked if there is anything they can do. Sadly, there isn't even much I can do. If you see me, I'll take a big smile. With a little advance warning, I might even appreciate a hug. Mostly, I justed needed everyone to know life is hard.